Never took the chance, could have jumped the fence
I was scared of my own two feet.
Could have crossed the line, it was black and white
No contrast to be seen.
What would you do? What would you do?
Do you know?
Was it all a joke? Never had control.
I’m not better on my own.
“I’m Not Over” Carolina Liar
-From another old playlist “Flurry of Fall Favorites 2008”. I am really getting some leverage out of old playlists these days.
You really must watch this video of Local Natives doing Cecilia. (Also here.)
In college, we used to call this the Bucket Song. And we sang it. Into a bucket. Like 9 of us. Loudly.
Yeah, it’s a lot more fun than it sounds.
Eating: Mostly drinking. Black Cherry Soda. Yummers.
Making: Gaaah, have fallen off the wagon on all craft projects but will hopefully finish up an overdue baby quilt this weekend. Send me some motivation, puh-lease.
Reading: Vanity Fair by William Makepeace Thackeray. Ah, yes, the BIG ‘UN of our challenge books this year. It’s actually going pretty fast when I actually read it…but have been doing a lot of El train crossword-ing so I haven’t quite devoted myself to it yet. But I like it more than I expected to!
Watching: Finally finished Band of HottiesBrothers. Sigh. So Good. Warehouse 13 just started; I liked the first one! At least enough to keep watching.
Listening to: Pete Yorn “Back and Fourth”. Empy Orchestra “Here Lies Empty Orchestra”. Fuel/Friends latest mix. Eminem.
Failing at: Not freaking out.
*The Shit Out Of
In the order in which they appear on “Mariko Made Me, Spring ’07” one of my favorite playlists. If I love you, you might already have a copy of it. If not, it can’t hurt to ask. (And by ask I mean beg, steal or borrow. Or offer something in trade.)
The Eagles “Peaceful Easy Feeling”
I like the way your sparklin earrings lay
Against your skin so brown
And I want to sleep with you in the desert tonight
With a billion stars all around…
I get this feelin’ I may know you
As a lover and a friend
But this voice keeps whispering in my other ear
Tells me I may never see you again…
I actually have the farthest thing from a peaceful easy feeling right now as I am in the midst of the worst (what has so far been) four-day allergy attack of my motherfucking LIFE. I feel alternately like 1) my cheekbones are about to bust right off my face and / or 2) my entire head is going to EXPLODE. **
Fun times.
***ETA: Now diagnosed as a sinus infection! Antibiotics! And Steroids! FTW!
Alexi Murdoch “All My Days”
And I’ve been tryin to find, what’s been in my mind
As the days keep turning into night…
Well I have been quietly standing in the shade, all of my days…
Many a night I found myself with no friend standing near, all of my days…
For I look around me, and my eyes confound me
and it’s just too bright, as the days keep turning into night…
Now I see clearly: it’s you I’m looking for, all of my days
So I smile and know I’ll feel this loneliness no more, all of my days…
Murdoch was basically the entire soundtrack to Away We Go a few weeks back and I just keep needing to listen to him. If you aren’t familiar, you can try him out over here.
* ‘S only Wednesday? Sigh.
Neil Nathan “California Run”
You’re my blue sky fantasy
You’re my pretty melody
You’re my future history
Pete Yorn “Social Development Dance” (from his new album “Back & Fourth” that I really, really like)
And when we kissed it was electric
A chemist made us for each other…
There’s something missing in us
We long to make it whole
Though it never feels like it
I know you have it all
I know you have it all…
I heard you were staying up north with a friend
And that your hair was falling out
I tried to find out what had happened to you
I googled you in quotes, got no results
I never learned how you had died
But I knew how you had lived…
I always find the broken ones, what does this say about me?
-from “I’m Sorry, Baby, But You Can’t Stand in My Light Any More” Bob Mould
Eating: At Lula, tonight. I’m excited; I’ve never been!
Making: A bullshit annoying stupid summer shirt thingamabop. How do I always forget how much sewing clothes FUCKING SUCKS. I need to stick to quilts.
Reading: “Dark Places”, by Gillian Flynn. I LOVED (her earlier/first novel) Sharp Objects, but this book is much more….conventional? Sort of? Its main mystery is more conventional and it doesn’t have as interesting or as strong of imagery as SO. But after picking it back up this week, I really haven’t been able to put it down.
Watching: Reruns of NCIS. or CSI. whichever’s on. And I’m going to a screening of MOON on Monday: can’t wait!!
Listening to: New albums from Eminem, Green Day, Telekinesis!, Gomez, Phoenix, and shitloads of random singles, especially the Glee cast cover of “Don’t Stop Believin’ “, Iron & Wine doing New Order’s “Love Vigilantes” and random old, nasty nasty songs like “Crazy Bitch” by Buckcherry.
Failing at: Staying upbeat. Being patient. Imagine the shitstorm when the lack of those collides. My brain is a bad place to be!