Nonfiction: “A Field Guide to Getting Lost” by Rebecca Solnit.

Hard to know how to classify this book. Not really ‘travel’ although she does go a few places. Not really ‘memoir’ although there are memories discussed Maybe: Philosophical musings from a personal viewpoint?

Regardless, I loved it. Completely engaging. Calm, yet intense underneath. Asking tough questions. Pondering, considering, studying.

The important thing is not that Elijah might show up someday. The important thing is that the doors are left open to the dark every year.

Not a book about religion, although that quote uses it. But certainly a book about personal belief, personal musings. I really don’t lead this kind of contemplative life. But it was an inspiring read.

The chapter “Abandon” about her friend Marine really reminded me of “Truth and Beauty” by Ann Patchett, a memoir about Patchett’s friend Lucy, another soul in trouble.

Don’t be surprised to see me reading a LOT more Solnit in the days ahead.

Quote of the Day.

“I’ve always been a sucker for sad songs. I can listen to nothing but Slowdive records and be a pig in shit, so I naturally gravitate to writing those kinds of songs,” Bridwell says.

[click quote to go to full Harp Magazine interview; link via DJBV.]

I’ve got nothing but good things to say about the new Band of Horses “Cease to Begin” [doh]. I find the album totally entrancing and it’s one of my favorites of the year. But admittedly their songs are not super upbeat. Like their lead singer, I’m more than happy to listen to sad songs and wallow.

Live Via Podcast

If you’re not a concert-going freak like myself, but sometimes think “I wish I could hear these guys in concert,” then you might want to check out the KEXP Live Performance podcasts as well as NPR: All Songs Considered which recently has had a couple great live shows, such as The National, which was very similar to what I heard them do in concert (other than the live energy and the fact that you would have to turn a podcast up very VERY LOUD to have it be like being there in concert). KEXP had Band of Horses recently which I was psyched about since they are playing Chicago two nights in a row and I AM WORKING BOTH NIGHTS so I can’t go. Stupid j-o-b, always interfering with my real life priorities!!! One of them (um, yeah, I can’t remember which! Bygones) did an Okkervil River live podcast recently that was good, too. It was a much more raw show – more like dudes playing in a smokey bar than in a concert hall – a bit rough and tumble, and a few too many fans in the audience that wanted to make their presence known (“I love you, Will!” that’s great, moron, a) shut up and b) what about the rest of the band. geez. have some respect). There’s also a pretty long interview with aforementioned lead singer/writer/etc. Will at the end. I’m going to see Stars tomorrow night and I think I have a pretty good idea how cool and atmospheric their show is going to be after listening to their podcast with interview (KEXP or NPR? can’t remember!) where they talk about how much more important they find it to set up a real stage show/presence now that they’re playing to larger crowds.
So, in conclusion, if you can’t make it out to shows, or you can’t manage to get tickets the way I can here in Chicago (something I haven’t really gotten over, there are very few shows here where I haven’t been able to if I wanted [there is the rare show where I decide I just can’t go and then don’t try to buy them], and the only two I really remember are ones where I was an idiot and forgot that the tickets were on sale…), both NPR and KEXP are posting pretty solidly representative live podcasts. So you can go to the concert in your own living room or on your ipod on the El train. Woot. Check what they’ve got available for September/October and you should find all the ones I mentioned (as well as others).

Selected Sampler Singles – Paste #34

New (to me) Songs I’m Diggin:
“The Underdog” Spoon (not new today, but this sampler is where I first heard it)
“White Dove” John Vanderslice
“Put a Penny in the Slow” Fionn Regan (folksy, rolling guitar)
“Better People” Xavier Rudd (oh man this is so reminding me of something but I just can’t quite put my finger on it…)
“Parsons White” Phonograph
“Black Skies for the High & Mighty” Wrinkle Neck Mules (straight up country)
“Postcard from Kentucky” Rocky Votolato
“Oh Mary Don’t You Weep” Mike Farris (can I get a witness?)
“I Believe” Peter Searcy (anthemic)
“If You’re Gonna Leave” Emerson Hart (melancholy)
“Run” Renee Stahl (a little like Eliza Carthy)
Old Friends:
“Our Life Is Not a Movie or Maybe” Okkervil River
from Paste #34.

Mystery/Fiction: “In the Woods” by Tana French

It would be a big surprise to me if this novel isn’t in my Top 10 at the end of the year. LOVED IT. Really good. Sucks you right in, keeps you spellbound, and I stayed up way way way past my bedtime finishing it as I was close enough to the end I just couldn’t go to sleep without finding out what happened!
Two murder detectives, close friends, draw a chilling case with very few reliable leads. And it seems it may be related to a case from years past, of three children disappeared into the wood, two gone forever, one returned with no memory of the events. That returnee being one of the two aforementioned detectives.
Told first person from Rob (Adam)’s point of view, extremely seductive stream of consciousness. As the case becomes more and more personal, his life gets more tipsy turvy…
Everytime I picked this up, I just wanted to sit and read for hours on end. Excellent!
(p.s. When I saw this in the bookstore, I couldn’t remember where I’d heard of it. Then I realized it was in Jessica Jernigan’s “recommended” column. )

Chicago Film Festival: Control

Dir: Anton Corbijn

Actrs: Mostly fairly unknowns (Sam Riley = awesome!!), with Samantha Morton as Deborah Curtis.

A biopic of Ian Curtis, lead singer of Joy Division, the remaining members of which became New Order after Curtis’ suicide. Based on the biography written by his wife, Deborah. Reading up on details in various places, sounds pretty true to events, with some scenes/dialogue obviously imagined due to lack of other people in the room.

Corbijn is protesting in interviews being known only as a “rock photographer” although I’d say the skills of a rock photographer add greatly to the filming of this story. Regardless, it’s beautifully filmed in black and white, does a good job of showing the extreme bleakness of the surrounds, where they grew up, Curtis’ mental and emotional bleakness. Pondering whether either a) the side effects of his epilepsy medication made him not take the medication thus leading to more (and more?) epileptic fits on stage or whether b) he was indeed regularly taking it leading to more and more depression, paranoia, etc. The scene where the drugs are prescribed and the extreme lack of medical knowledge at the time around epilepsy was pretty scary. (Is it better now? One has to hope so.)

If not for Curtis’ suicide, you feel like you could be watching a movie about the early Stones or the Beatles. The music business was such a different animal, even in the late 70s when JD was getting their start. You see the evolution not only of the band, but of their manager and record company.

Some of it is just maddening, particularly the events that appear to lead directly to his suicide. Basically couldn’t handle being married and a father at his young age (they got married at 17 or 18, had a kid around 22, suicide at 23), was involved in at least one extramarital affair, (although I think the movie may have trimmed out other affairs for time), but prospect of wife divorcing him over him a) being unfaithful and b) stating to her that he doesn’t love her anymore! makes him completely despondent. Yet, he’s having an affair, so… Classic case of digging one’s own hole, yet his mental state left him completely unable to handle it or face up to his own actions. Interesting to see events in his life tied to songs writtenly shortly thereafter (“She Lost Control” and “Love Will Tear Us Apart” particularly).

Great acting here. Actors playing the band play the music themselves. If you liked Ray for Jamie Foxx’s incredibly Ray-like interpretation, or Walk the Line for a similarly incredible performance by Joaquin Phoenix, you should see this. Although Sam Riley’s voice is much higher than Curtis’, the band does a more than credible job of interpreting the songs and it all feels very, very real. Thought Riley did an incredible acting job, as well as Samantha Morton playing his wife and Alexandria Maria Lara playing his other love Annick (she’s breathtakingly gorgeous).

In my own “rock history”, given that he committed suicide in 1980 when I was whatever, fucking young as shit, I knew the music of New Order much better, became a huge fan thanks to my friend Pete freshman year of college who was the first person to play New Order for me, as well as The Replacements, and so many more bands that certainly owe some musical debts to Joy Division. Even today, bands like The National, would their lead have considered a rock career without having heard similarly low-voiced Ian Curtis, one has to wonder. Curtis was a big Bowie fan early on, there are lots of other bands up and coming alongside them (the Buzzcocks, hilarious bit in the film about the name; The Sex Pistols), and watching the movie just made me need to go home and sit down in front of the stereo…

New Order site lists showings around the country. Go! Highly recommended. Might want to bring kleenex.

Chicago Film Festival: Blackout

Dir: Jerry LaMothe

Actrs: Mostly unknowns (to me) but a few familiar faces such as Jeffrey Wright, Zoe Saldana, and Saul Rubinek.

This movie was EXCELLENT. Completely compelling. I turned in my ballot with a 5 and I hope it gets a major distributor. Excellent even though the print we watched had a HUGE time code along the bottom of the screen (blocking about the bottom fourth of the screen) and no credits at the end.
Focuses on the New York City blackout of August 2003*, details the events in one Brooklyn neighborhood, particularly focused on the tenants of one apartment building and the workers at one hair salon. (Based on true events from the blackout, but believe the specific particulars are fictional.)

Really really great. Great acting, great pacing, great suspense, great passion and concern… Loved it. Both thumbs way up.

*hello, I was there! that was my last night in New York and I wound up sleeping on a couch in Manhattan unable to even get to my apartment in Queens!, and walking up and down many sets of stairs in complete darkness, and going for a very scary walk on the dark streets trying to find Amy…

Fiction: “The Used World” by Haven Kimmel

Just as insightful and heartbreaking and tender and comic and genius as you should expect from a Haven Kimmel book. A story of three woman, connected and disconnected in ways only known to one of them. Spirituality, and friendship, and family, and love. And pain, and guilt, and when can one forgive, and when is forgiveness off the table. Small-town America, with all its aches and pains. And particularly the pangs of those more worldly who live in it.

Quite, quite lovely. Kimmel is an automatic “buy in hardback” for me at this point.

Death and Faith.

I got an email from a friend telling me her Dad died, and it reminded me that Madeleine L’Engle died recently and I’ve been meaning to recommend a specific book of hers.

While I dearly dearly love the Wrinkle in Time books, and there are a few of her adult fiction books I enjoyed also (A Small Rain, A Severed Wasp), my all-time favorite L’Engle book is from her “Crosswick Journals” ‘set, Vol 4. Two-Part Invention: The Story of a Marriage.

A large part of the book is about her husband dying of cancer, and her struggling with her faith to “make sense of” or deal with that without falling back on either the nonsensical “why god why” or the equally (to believers in the concept of Free Will) nonsensical “God must have had a reason.” (In a world operating under Free Will, God is not a puppet master.)

It was a really lovely book and helped me when I was dealing with a death that hit me particularly hard, given the specific circumstances.

I reread the Wrinkle in Time books a few years ago during Harry Potter mania, to reconfirm that I did still love them even though I didn’t love (what I tried of) Harry Potter. They are more like both C.S. Lewis (faith-based fantasy) and Phillip Pullman (lovelovelove), and Meg and Charles are very beloved characters (by me and, of course, many others).

RIP Madeleine L’Engle.

RIP Papa Auta. I am sad I’ll never meet you when I finally make it to New Zealand. Your daughter has been such an important part of my life.